Eat, Pray, Love

It's kind of funny how life works out....I've been wallowing....poor me, my problems, nobody understands how I feel, I've been so self-absorbed, and selfish, despite ALL the friends & family that I have there are times I just feel 'alone' ....don't mix that up with being afraid of being alone because I'm not, but there are times I feel loney....yet all of my own doing. I really feel, as of late I've been pushing people away...can't really explain as to why but I do think I have.

SO....about a month ago...a co-worker of mine, loaned me a book to read (the same one who loaned me this book) he said I think you'll like it....well I'm not done yet but I'm completely engrossed in it....I just read a blurp every now and then, to be truthful, I can only handle the book in small doses. It's called "The Alchemist" ...seriously every time I read a chapter the nerd in me comes out and wants to hi-light quotes SO badly. But because I don't own it, I can't...I will be purchasing a copy for myself at some point.

Anyway....the point is...so much in this book is about being in the PRESENT, being in the moment and stop living in the past or worrying about the future. Because if that's all you think about life passes you by & you haven't lived, since you were never in the present. Then today, being home from work due to Thanksgiving I decide to watch Oprah....it's all about feeding your kids their veggies and being healthy, I go onto her website to further read up on Jessica Seinfelds book and something JUMPS out at me from the screen, LAST FRIDAYS SHOW.....

EAT, PRAY, LOVE - Elizabeth Gilbert....and holy crap....I'm seriously buying this book, THIS week.....in this case Elizabeth found herself crying on her bathroom floor at 3am and filed for divorce, no that's not me, I'm not filing for divorce or crying on the bathroom floor but I can certainly say this weekend I did do the crying bit....

On Oprah's website she even has 3 separate links with further info and discussion boards by Elizabeth about her book and her concepts. And the whole "be in the present" really stuck out to me....here's a couple of them:

Staying present keeps us in the moment which is where life is.
Life does not exist in future predictions or past grievances; all we have for sure is right here and right now. Every moment teaches us something, and if we are busily trying to change or control something we miss the grace intended for us. By allowing the sacred mystery to unfold without trying to tamper with it, we can move through anything with much more ease and simplicity. As we cease resisting, any so-called negative situation or emotion will have the space to work out. And by the same token, when we are completely alert and aware in any given moment, we are open to the subtle miracles happening all around us. By staying present, we will see our partner for who they are; we will hear clearly their communication and respond to it astutely.

Being grateful for what you have zeros in on what is working, which in turn magnetizes more of the same.
Where you put your focus is where you direct your creative intention; so if you want abundance, be grateful for the vitality you have now. If you want a soulful relationship, be grateful for the soulful moments. Gratitude is like a seed you plant; it grows more as it is watered and nourished. Show your partner what you appreciate in them and let them know that they have a positive effect in your life. The acknowledgement of good will call forth more of the same.

I can't explain why this is hitting me so hard today and yet I feel this is exactly what I needed, TODAY, because of how my life has been going and how I've been feeling as of late, especially this weekend. The book "The Alchemist" often speaks of 'omens' and paying attention to them, then there's a point, where the main character in the book more or less says, I realize now these omens are God or Allah or whoever you listen too....and I do believe that....God often puts signs in our path and it's entirely up to us to listen, be quiet, or be still, like the Bible says...."Ask, and it shall be given…seek, and ye shall find." If we don't take that time we'll never hear or see that oh so simple thing that God may have put right in front of us.

So I'm going to read the book, not to make it a "rule book" for my life, but definitely an inspiration of moving forward.....to be present, here right now, in the moment :) This weekend, today, for some reason happened the way it was supposed to, and I'm glad it did. Can't keep wallowing if I'm not willing to do anything about it....now I'm doing something about it ....

I'll keep you posted on the progress.